that’s it

i can’t be poor anymore. it’s just that simple.

i’m applying for part time positions at the following places:

http://www.ccsww.org/
http://www.desc.org/
http://www.pioneerhumanserv.com/
http://www.smh.org/
http://www.therapeutichealth.org/
yes, i know, it’s THS and i’m applying there again…but only for PT, like intakes or something. i think that would be okay. most of the jerks are gone now. although, my pat, one thing that strikes me as funny…they’ll have to change the email contact on the website as C has been fired. :)
http://www.residencexii.org/
http://www.lakesidemilam.com/
http://www.evergreenmanor.org/

if anyone has anything to say i just don’t want to hear it at this point. it’s not like it would be full time, and full time is what drove me insane last time. i have a license, i may as well be using it for something positive.

the other day when i was cleaning my apt. i found an old card that a client had given me and for a brief second it made me sad. strangely enough, i felt for a moment that i had abandoned people. and maybe that’s a very self-important feeling to have, maybe not. but at any rate, for a split second when i saw that and thought about it, i missed it.

maybe, if i was really busy i wouldn’t have time to have bad days and good days. like today, was a bad day. i started off the morning snapping at whoever was in radius and immediately burst into tears upon getting in the car. for no reason. maybe, if i was really busy and all i did was work or go to therapy that would be good for a while. i might like that. i would be getting beter, and earning more money.

called argosy today to try and set up an admissions apt. i think today i will go to shoreline and get my transcripts from there so that when i do go to that appt. i will be ready this time with everything they need.

i’m really trying to get some movement happening. i promise. except the call that has the greatest potential to produce anxiety has yet to be made.