Strbellysneetch’s Weblog

It’s a fairly good indicator that you have a pretty decent shot. Especially when they’re asking you that pre-interview.

No, it doesn’t hurt in the least that I’ve worked there before…but still.

What really cemented it was a negative reply I received today for a position applied for with the current company…a position that I’m actually too qualified for. Why would I remain loyal to something that has not in any way been loyal to me? I know, it’s a ridiculous question. The answer, is that I’m not going to.

There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year’s course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word ‘happy’ would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness. –Carl Jung

To take a sick day. And I most suredly believe that’s why I hardly ever have to spend a week or two layed up and unable to move due to extreme illness.

It began around 7:30pm this evening. ‘It’ being that familiar twinge of discomfort in my throat coupled with the slightly woozy feeling where just for seconds at a time I feel as if I’m not really of this earth anymore. Not good. I can’t afford to be sick for weeks on end like many of my friends have unfortunately been lately. I get sick for weeks and school goes to absolute pot…nevermind work, because I wouldn’t fall so behind in that that I would just have to bend over and give up due to the flu. I cannot be ill. There’s no two ways around it. It’s times like this that I thank whomever bestowed my right brain, emotional thinking. Yes, this is what we talked about briefly in class tonight. And this is what I came up with to determine that I’m predominantly a right-brain thinker:

• Summarizes readings
• Competes with self
• Remembers faces
• Shops on impulse
• Thinks of multiple ways to solve a problem
• Prefers flexible instructions
• Is restless during oral presentations
• Organizes things to show relationships
• Reads the newspaper to understand the main idea (as opposed to details/facts)
• Makes decisions on a gut level or by hunch
• Is skilled at solving problems intuitively

‘Right brained individuals’:

• Are outgoing and work well with others
• Like to relax and just do nothing
• Like to sing in the shower
• Enjoy rearranging their furniture and decorating their home
• Easily read people’s body language
• Strongly visualize the characters, setting and plot of a story
• Postpone making phone calls

Yes, these are somewhat ‘generalist’ lists and most people can claim attributes from either "side", but most are going to be predominantly one or the other I think.

Thank you, right brain, for intuitively knowing that I am about to get sick and need to take a day of rest to ward it off so that I don’t end up flunking out of school this session and lying in a useless heap for the next week.

Which is why I’m glad I no longer take birth control pills.

Hopefully, studies of this kind won’t have the same effect that the HRT studies did, which was essentially to get media-ed up and hyped up to where it was a little out of control.

There is something to be said about caution, though, even if we’re talking about the smallest probability that birth control pills can impede a natural bodily process for fighting off cancer cells:

But the researchers found when estrogen binds with an estrogen receptor the complex promotes production of a granzyme inhibitor, proteinase inhibitor 9 (PI-9). That inhibitor binds the granzyme, preventing it from initiating the molecular cascade that kills tumor cells.

"It wasn’t known estrogen could do this in breast cancer cells," said principal investigator David Shapiro, a UI professor of biochemistry. "The amounts of estrogen required to do this are quite small.

Thing is, even at the age of 15 when I started my over 10 year period of taking them on and off, I knew instinctually that there was something not so right about putting extra hormones in my body. There is a certain amount that ebbs and flows for a natural and biological reason…my thinking all along has been, ‘who am I to determine how that will change via extra estrogen’?

Love is a smoke made with the fume of sighs. Being purged, a fire sparkling in lovers’ eyes. Being vexed, a sea nourished with lovers’ tears. What is it else? A madness most discreet, a choking gall and a preserving sweet. -William Shakespeare